After the course, what resonated with me and impressed me most was “Creative breath”. With the breath of anger, for the first time I was regressing and recalling at once: a past-life memory and a present-life memory unfolded simultaneously. I saw a scene in which I was torturing a young woman (in a past life); this person is my father in the present life. At the same time I “relived” the senseless and deeply haunting beating my father gave me when I was about 17. The dominant emotions were anger, resistance, then helplessness, a sense of injustice, and rage. My breath was short, rapid, strong and hot. And in this same meditation-and-breathing session, I discovered something interesting about the breath. After the breath of anger, as I gradually calmed down (still within the session), I noticed that the in-breath, as it passed through the heart, was very deep, long and full. Observing my breath, I counted silently, and the in-breath sometimes lasted up to 20 seconds. Perhaps it was the breath of stillness in the heart that helped soothe the anger. Afterwards I tried again and found it was true: when the breath “passes through” the heart it is very deep and very long, and it helps me feel more centered.
Over the past week I have felt much calmer. Many things happened that could easily have triggered negative emotions, but I found myself steadier. In particular, once my father had been drinking and deliberately said things to upset me, even falsely accusing and scolding me, but I did not react at all. When it came heavily and relentlessly, I felt a little anger in my mind, but then I breathed and calmed down again. Afterwards, I truly felt compassion for my father's ignorance. I respect his journey and his soul's choices. I know a time will come when he too will have the chance to face, work with and cleanse these memories of his own — just as I am now having the chance to face the ugliness and darkness within me. More and more I understand the universal oneness and all-embracing inclusion that Master always teaches. The more we practice, the more courage we have to face ourselves and to face everyone.
May light come to all, including me.
This week I did not put much emphasis on verification, but I still devoted a great deal of observation and cultivation to my mind. Lessons come every day. I reflect on every event, and I see that this past week I trained my forbearance and perseverance well. I had the chance to harvest the fruits of my labor after half a year of tending and nurturing. Looking at the vast green garden, I remembered the first days, when I almost gave up right at the start because of so many difficulties. Yet with the qualities of someone seeking the light, I made an effort day after day. I cherish the present result and feel more clearly the great lesson of this lifetime: the lesson of the quality of angel #7 Achaial, the quality of patience. When everyone else had their reasons and their own affairs, I kept working alone, little by little, with humility, patience and no anger. The me of before would probably have reacted very badly. Every breath and every action carries the “quantum particle” of surrender, calm and humility of a soul that knows it still has much to learn and train.
Discovering the fitting pattern of the breath as it passes through the heart is perhaps the most wonderful blessing I received from the course. It helps me gain an observer's perspective and correct myself better.
With the quantum verification techniques, I find that when I am “clear” and pure, I trust the results more, and they also prove right. I am aware of the 7 Dog Paws, but I feel there are still times when interference affects me. I feel “hesitant” to use quantum muscle-testing techniques. Perhaps when I use the muscles to verify, my will is still involved and I am not yet clear. I learned to use a pendulum about 4–5 years ago, but in this class I feel I learned it more correctly and know clearly what to avoid when verifying. For important decisions, I think I will use dreams, to gain clarity free of interfering factors.
When Master taught how to use a pendulum to check the health of the chakras and to heal the chakras, I had the chance to practice with my husband. To make the measurement easier, I tried it with the 6th chakra. His third-eye chakra was blocked (the pendulum swung counter-clockwise). I sat down and quickly went through the process of activating the hands of light. When I checked and felt energy between my two hands, I invited him to sit in a chair. I rotated counter-clockwise to cleanse; I did not manage to count because I was rotating my hand quite fast and concentrating my energy, but I rotated for a long time, many turns, probably close to the 200 rotations Master instructed. Then I rotated clockwise to heal; while rotating I focused on the 2 small suns in my two palms and on the intention of helping him cleanse. When I finished the process, I checked again with the pendulum and saw that it now swung clockwise. I asked him what he felt, and he said he sensed something, some kind of energy, a tingling feeling.
On the evening of day 1 of the course, I had the chance to visit my younger cousin, who had just had shoulder surgery for a broken bone. I asked the family's permission to support him, and they welcomed it. This was the first time I used the hands of light to support another person. I am very careful with each step of my evolution at SoulCoach. And I felt my family “embrace” my journey, for which I am grateful.
My cousin was receptive too; he put down his phone, lay still and relaxed, breathing as I guided him. I sat on a chair and went through the process of activating the hands of light. Because I am new to the practice, I always include a step to check the energy. Only once I was sure my hands were ready (with energy between them) did I begin the support. I did 2 different processes: first, rotating counter-clockwise to cleanse and clockwise to heal; second, bringing in source energy to heal the wound. Between the 2 processes I checked the energy in my hands again, and since it was still there, I continued. Practicing with a pure intention and full concentration on my cousin's shoulder, I saw a golden halo of energy at his broken bone. I felt my body grow hot all over. After finishing the process, I saw my cousin lying still and relaxed, as if he wanted to fall asleep. The next day, my aunt called to say my cousin said the pain had eased. Over the past week, he has gone to school and been able to take notes. My mother also said he seemed to be recovering quickly. Perhaps being young (18 years old) also helps his recovery. I don't know whether I was able to support him much, but truly, when doing these processes I held a very sacred intention and focused all my effort on supporting him. I was not looking for a “miracle” in doing this. Inside there was only one intention: to support my cousin as best I could so that he would recover quickly and continue his studies, as he is in his final year and preparing for his graduation exams. Just last night, when he went to have his dressing changed, the nurse near his home also said the wound was recovering very well and had begun to heal, with new skin forming. May good things come to him so that he can fully complete his studies.
With each step on the SoulCoach journey, I walk in blessings, sincerity and gratitude. I find Master's teachings appearing in almost every moment of my life. Whenever I stand before a thing, a phenomenon, a task or a decision, Master's words or Master's way of doing things appear, helping me stay closer and truer to right intention and the true Dharma. Thank you for the blessing that I can “once again” continue to be Master's student, and that I have a “boat” to carry me to the shore of awakening.
